Catching Flights, Not Feelings..For the Most Part

Currently: Sitting at BWI waiting for my flight out to Atlanta. I made it to my spring break y'all. Yesterday, I got home from work, stared at a wall for 20 minutes and was a literal corpse for the rest of the night. I cracked open an Alani, poured it on ice, and was able to pack, make two TikToks for no reason, Facetime my best friend to avoid packing, and watch a new movie on Netflix (it's called "Players" highly recommend).

This week was rough. Honestly, the last couple of weeks have just been a series of wtf moments. By Wednesday, I was telling my therapist that I just needed to cruise through Friday. She is proud of me for finding ways to take a deep breath and laugh a lot of it off, but I have been having quite the string of bad luck. My work life, some personal things..throw some men in their 20's my way and I just am at a loss LOL. Anyways, whoever has my voodoo doll can you please relax? Thank you so much.

My parents just moved down to Atlanta in February. As soon as my mom moved, she booked my sister and I flights for our spring break and sent us the itinerary. My parents and I have always been really close. When I moved home for a year after college, our group chat name was "roomies" and the year was honestly such vibes. When my dad got a job offer in Atlanta, it was such nostalgia. I was so excited for their next journey and what this meant for my dad. I watched so much weight come off of my dad's shoulders when he got this job offer. How could I not be happy for them? At the same time, I was sad and it's still pretty weird not having them around all the time. My family would have weekly family dinner nights even though none of us lived under the same roof. It's been an adjustment for sure, which is why this visit is so fun for us. My parents have been calling me like twice a week for the last month planning out our itinerary. It's so cute and hilarious hearing them so giddy to see us. For the first couple of weeks that they were talking about what we were going to do, I would tell them I couldn't even think about it because work was so crazy and it was so far away. That didn't stop them. I'm smiling typing this because how did I get so lucky with my favorite people on this planet being my parents? In my head, my life is a bit of a mess right now and I don't have a lot of answers about what's coming next for me. But I just know that this next week is going to put a lot of my pieces back together and somehow those two always know what to say to get me back on my feet.

I'm thankful and thrilled to be a freeloader for the next week. My mom said and I quote, "Just throw a bunch of sh*t in a bag and if you need anything we'll just go buy it!" Normally, I hate when people spend their money on me. Especially, my parents. But, I'm just going to enjoy the week and let my people love on me. I need it. I've spent a lot of time being alone in the last couple of months, that I'm excited to feel the MOST love. I drove my car to the airport and am parking it here for the week. On my way here, I got a Zelle notification that my dad sent me money for my parking and gas. I texted him, "I told you not to send me money!!" To which he replied: "Don't yell at your father! :)" Sometimes, you just need your besties. Your OG roomies.

Letting people love on you can be uncomfortable. You never want to feel like a burden. The reality is, your people will never view you like that. Enjoy the time you spend with your people. Let them spoil you. Let them love you. Yes, you deserve it.